T-minus 9 or so hours

We've been to pre-op. We've filled out the forms. We've talked to Elliot's school and we've arranged his life for the next 5 days at least. We've paid all the bills for a while and nothing is hanging over our heads at the moment. (Again, so many thanks to all who've helped make that happen)

We've seen (rather graphically) all the pictures of what's going to happen and we've had a nice dinner and some wine, with some quiet jazz playing in the background. John's been to the Zen center for a little meditation. We've been recieving everyone's good ju-ju for the last 2 weeks. There is nothing more to do to prepare. Now there is just getting up at 4am to arrive at admitting at 5:30 in the morning.

John is walking around saying "Get it out! Get it the eff out!" We are packing up the bags of the unwanted visitor right now in preparation for kicking it's ass out of our house and out of our lives.

The surgeon has a very assuring manner and we've heard nothing but great things about his work. We feel lucky that the patient that was supposed to have the same surgery before John has cancelled so John is first in line in the morning. Can you imagine being second in line??? Not me! I want that surgeon fresh and rested and not tired of doing any part of his job. He told us today that sometimes, he can get this operation done in 2 hours, if there are no complications and if the pancreas is cooperative. My reaction was "Just take your time ok!" Just do it right the first time and hopefully we can get on with the healing, pronto. More likely the surgery will take something like 6 hours. That's better than 10. These guys have got it down to a fine science.

There are some dishes to do, but I wanted to get one more post out to everyone before we head off to bed. I'm going to have a lap top tomorrow and it will do me good, and hopefully you too, to try and find a hot spot and fill you in on the admitting and pre-op and to let you all know that we are holding it together. There are people coming by to keep me company. All are welcome. It's going to be a long day. If you don't have my cell phone number, hopefully you know someone who does. If you want to come by the Walnut Creek Kaiser, it would probably be good to call before you come, just so I can tell you where we are. You will find me...either journaling, blogging or knitting. I will more than likely need good coffee and I will most definitely be happy to see you. Any excuse to smile will be greeted with heartfelt enthusiasm.

Keep those good thoughts coming our way.

We love you.

Vicki, John, Taryn & Elliot